Damped Pillowcase

Breathe in and breathe out

I beg myself

Suppressing every teardrop with all my might

I inhale and exhale as natural as I can

Facading the sound of my weep from anyone nearby 

My tears fall before I realised

Leaving evidence on my pillowcase for what should not be known

I beg and pray for Him to ease the pain

as the what if’s take over my mind 

and threaten me with every possibility

.

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“ Astaghfirullah”

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A jolt back to reality

I leave my life to Him 

I exhaled my worries and concerns 

I inhaled my faith in Him 

I wiped my tears 

and whispered to myself

“I trust You.”