Coping Mechanism

“How do you cope? ”

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“I don’t. “

Sometimes the best way to go about it is  to disintegrate 

To disintegrate and to disassociate from all traces of the memory

The smiles and the frowns,

from everything

Unintentionally, causing the innocent ones in pain 

“It will never be the same. ”

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Far away and foreign 

To a place where everything and anything that triggers it becomes numb

It’s selfish

It’s unfortunate 

it’s hopeless 

But it’s emotionless

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And that’s the only way I cope