Diy's Diary: The Pressure of Pandemic & Doing The Right Thing All The Time
Things have been quite heavy with the constant unfortunate news and the constant feeling of helplessness, it's safe to say that the sky have been quite cloudy, for a very long time. At times like this, it's hard to feel okay, it's uncomfortable to be happy. But I know it should not be that way. However, it's just human to feel that way and that's okay.
It's crazy to think how one virus is able to stop the world, literally. My heart goes to the ones who are losing their job, losing their loved ones, running out of business, fighting for their health and fighting for their rights. It's truly heartbreaking.
Being isolated doesn't help much either. But this is the time to truly count our blessings and make the best of the situation. No matter how difficult it is to see the the stars in the dark sky. However, I'm grateful that this time around I am near to someone that matters so much to me. Someone that grounds me and brings me so much comfort. Alhamdulillah.
If I am brutally honest, I truly truly miss the good old times. When going out was never life threatening. Seeing your friends were never limited by districts. Having all of our family at one table isn't some ancient story.
One closed shop, one closed business is equal to hundreds or thousands of families' bread and butter taken away. I cannot help but to feel heavy in my chest as I stare at the empty lots in the shopping mall. The reality is harsh.
Sometimes when it's too heavy I divert my attention to something "lighter" with hopes that it could make me forget the headlines and the horrifying photos I saw online. And that itself makes me feel guilty and heavy. It's truly a privilege to even think of doing that. I'm not diverting my attention because I'm tired of voicing out and playing my part as His servant but I cannot deny that it has taken a toll on myself.
I post and repost. I post and repost.
and my heart crumbles as the feeling of helpless grows.
I need to be mentally stronger for the people who do not have a voice. One of my biggest concern in life is not using my privilege to do the right thing. I'm sure He has given us these blessings to be used to the right path. To provide help to the needy. To become the voice for the ones whose voices have been taken away. I cannot even begin to imagine how strong the people of Palestine are. My utmost respect and admiration goes to them.
At the end of the day, I'm just a human being who is experiencing life for the first time, who is learning and trying her best to do the right thing. Mistakes are human, mistakes are just us experiencing, exploring and understanding life. We can take note, analyse, move on and be better. I need to find a way to go about this as I know it will take a while to solve these. I should find balance.
If you too have been feeling down because of the news, I want you to know that it's human to need a break. Listen to you body, listen to what it needs. Analyse, reflect and come back.
May He ease everything in this world, may He bring this pandemic to an end, may He bring justice to our brother and sisters in Palestine and everyone who are being treated unfairly. Ameen.
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