Only He knows, only He knows

I was threatened by a knife in the dark, alone at night. Only He knows how I felt. Only He knows how desperate I was. He saved me, He truly saved me in a moment where I felt so hopeless and terrified to death. I was able to escape before he could harm me Alhamdulillah. And I knew it was only Him that could save me. And I knew it was because of Him I am able to write this now.

I was lucky in that he only took my phone, my bag and my belongings and. not. me.  I was lucky he did not take me. I was lucky he did not take me and did nasty things to me. I was extremely beyond lucky in this nauseating situation. To be faced with one of my biggest fears which is becoming one of the victims in the crime stories I see in the news everyday was almost petrifying. As quick as it happened, despite the fortunate aftermath, it left me feeling deathly. As someone who tries so hard all the time to not let people worry about her, it’s difficult to express have frightened to death I was in that moment. “How are you now?” “I’m fine haha” But behind closed door, it kills me. It kills me how I just witnessed my life being threatened as though I was nothing. It kills me how I just witnessed my life being determined by the knife held by this horrible human being. It kills me. I’ve never cried so hard out of fear. Every cell in my body trembles.  I didn’t know if it is even possible to tremble that much. I am so disappointed that I feel threatened by my own people in a place of my own. I pray that He protects us from everything bad in this world and hereafter and blesses us with everything good in this world and hereafter. Amin. Allahuakhbar. Alhamdulillah.