Foreign Behaviour
These past few weeks have been a complete blur.Everything happened so rapidly.Too rapid to the point where I have yet to have some time to connect with my thoughts.Before I started university,I bought a notebook with the mere intention to journal my daily emotions.I wanted to document my journey in university.I want to be able to see my progress and reflect on it as I go through the years.However,the book is yet to be filled when it is already the fifth week.That depicts how hectic university has been .
There are so many things that I would like to achieve.One of them is to branch myself more than I have ever done.Grab open opportunities.Seek for opportunities.However,peculiarly,I find myself doing the exact opposite.Perhaps not the complete opposite but I am restraining more than I have ever did.I have became very indecisive and relunctant to take actions which is out of character for me.A time that really made me realised this peculiar behaviour that is slowly taking in control of me is when one of my closest friends pointed my foreign behaviour."This isn't like you at all".Her comment echoed in my mind for days only because I,too,agree with her.It is,undeniably,frustrating when your actions counteract your intentions.It made me take a step back and ask myself "Why am I behaving in such a way?"
Why?
That is something that I have yet to learn.It could be a post effect of the incident.Regardless,I should never allow this foreign behaviour to reside permanetly in me.I should never allow a hole in my life to drag me to the bottom.Instead I shall plant a tree and look beyond it's branches for the hidden blessings that it carries with it.
Perhaps it's true that you learn the most about yourself in university.
Perhaps the motivation that I used to have was fueled by something that isn't present anymore and that I am just going through a climatizing process with it's absence.
Whatever it is I am going through,I will go through it.I believe there is a blessing at the end of this tunnel.
Whatever it is you are going through,look at it from a positive perspective.Strive to be the best version of yourself everyday and most importantly,always believe in Him.
"Time will pass and this shall too"
Love,
Diyanah Nadrah
There are so many things that I would like to achieve.One of them is to branch myself more than I have ever done.Grab open opportunities.Seek for opportunities.However,peculiarly,I find myself doing the exact opposite.Perhaps not the complete opposite but I am restraining more than I have ever did.I have became very indecisive and relunctant to take actions which is out of character for me.A time that really made me realised this peculiar behaviour that is slowly taking in control of me is when one of my closest friends pointed my foreign behaviour."This isn't like you at all".Her comment echoed in my mind for days only because I,too,agree with her.It is,undeniably,frustrating when your actions counteract your intentions.It made me take a step back and ask myself "Why am I behaving in such a way?"
Why?
That is something that I have yet to learn.It could be a post effect of the incident.Regardless,I should never allow this foreign behaviour to reside permanetly in me.I should never allow a hole in my life to drag me to the bottom.Instead I shall plant a tree and look beyond it's branches for the hidden blessings that it carries with it.
Perhaps it's true that you learn the most about yourself in university.
Perhaps the motivation that I used to have was fueled by something that isn't present anymore and that I am just going through a climatizing process with it's absence.
Whatever it is I am going through,I will go through it.I believe there is a blessing at the end of this tunnel.
Whatever it is you are going through,look at it from a positive perspective.Strive to be the best version of yourself everyday and most importantly,always believe in Him.
"Time will pass and this shall too"
Love,
Diyanah Nadrah
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